Fresh Starts and Constants - updated

Taking the road of your own journey is never easy, no matter how many books you read, how much you talk to others, it is just hard... but then daily life is hard...and so is following someone else's view of what we should do or who we should be. 

Perhaps the only option then, is to chose to deal with our own version of what we think is right and wrong, our own version of what a good education is, to develop our own ideals and goals. So that goals are away from what the media protrays or what we are told we should and shouln't do. Then we choose what tough stuff we have to deal with, and find ways to make that our own advantage.

I don't think the goal should be eternal happiness and everlasting joy, but perhaps instead to be simply contented in knowing who we are, how we fit in to the world around us, and how we can make the best of it for all. 

In the first instance there is perhaps a task to find out who we are; what we like and what we don't like, and to find the right support to nuture this. In the second instance it could be to find the environment that you want to be in, where you feel drawn to and the most at home. In doing so, it is possible to create a great sense of calmness with emotions, as anxieties disapate, fears dissolve and we bring the right elements into our life. This does not mean that you will find peace in theis process, as you will very likely need to deal with some deep rooted issues that surface, but there can also be a greater sense that whatever happens you will be ok. That if a tragedy befalls you, you will work it out; and if good things happen, that’s fine too. So that you can get to a place where its possible to recognise that either way things change. Life can be great one day and shit the rest but mostly it’s a little bit of both all the time, and that is fine.

The only constant in life is change - this is something that we can take for certain - that things will always change. So rather than be afraid of it or for change to be unexpected, you can always prepared for the next wave that inevitably comes. Nothing ever stays the same. In observing nature it is possible to be more aware of this; the trees can change colour from one day to the next, the stars can change place in the sky within a month, a patch of land can become overgrown in a week. Nothing stays the same.

In thinking about the nature of life, I see more and more each day that life is organic, it moves, changes, grows and dies all within the same space of time. It is neither beautiful nor ugly, it is not good or cruel, it just is. It exists. Difficulties always seem to arise when we try to place a framework on it, to project a way of looking at it and try to change it according to our views. “It’s not right because... (it doesn’t fit my view)”.  The beauty of our world and our human existence is that no one person sees the world exactly the same way, not even twins. We all have our own unique view on the world, that we are the only people who can see the world through our eyes. Just as all the trees despite perhaps growing in the same field, being the same species and receiving the same food, will all be different.

It is not our similarity that binds us but our uniqueness, our differences. 

Often I like to puzzle the greater questions in life and seek solutions, I play with ideas looking for universal rules... frameworks that can fit complex scenarios with a single unifying answer and yet all I come up with are more and more and more solutions. The only sensible conclusion that I can reach is that in perception the only constant is difference. That there is no right or wrong way to see the world no matter your opinion, or how it conforms with society, there is only difference in how we each experience and translate what is around us. To utilise this as an asset would be a great advantage to our race, however we would need to become more objective and less subjective to be able to more succinctly assess differences and their uses between one another. 

Day 9: Feeling the fear and doing it anyway

The last entry (Day 5) inspired me to begin writing the book, and I've now completed the first pages. It is more raw and honest than I anticipated as it seemed right to use my personal experiences, weaving in insight, thought and research as I experienced and understand them.

As I reflected on the Day 5 entry I was reminded of the Hyde Park Live8 Concert in 2005. While in the main arena listening to the final few songs, I was feeling so happy and so elated, when this sentence came into my mind 'My role in this world is to be a guide for the global community', it repeated a few times and stuck with me to the point that I wrote it down that night in my diary. At the time I did not know what it meant, nor how it would manifest. I was also quite intimidated by the idea that I might have a role to play on a global level. After all, I am a small person and what right did I have to think that I could do a job at that level? Why me over someone else born in a different circumstance? Questions I did not have answers for..

Now I have chosen to take steps towards a life that is more natural to me, these words have begun to take on more weight. I am still not yet sure how this will manifest or what it means exactly, but the fact that I am reminded of them tells me that they have some meaning or role to play in this upcoming journey.

After getting feedback on this blog and the book, I found out that I need to do the one thing that I am the most afraid of - talk through my personal experiences.

Fear of being judged is something that has terrified me in recent years, but yet now it seems to get the best response. Its surprising how much personal strength it takes to stay firm and keep on track even in a direction of your own determination, perhaps especially so. Even though people describe me as confident, it never stops me getting scared or unsure at times but then someone will say something to me, or I'll see something that triggers a thought telling me I am heading in the right direction, or it gives me ideas of how to overcome the latest barrier. As a testament to that, many thanks to AGD for the following quote sent earlier this week:

“You are now at a crossroads. This is your opportunity to make the most important decision you will ever make. Forget your past. Who are you now? Who have you decided you really are now? Don't think about who you have been. Who are you now? Who have you decided to become? Make this decision consciously. Make it carefully. Make it powerfully.”

 Anthony Robbins 

Thanks to Susan Jeffers and her book, 'Feel the Fear and Do it Anyway' for the title!

Day 5: Its all happening quite Thick and Fast

Now my journey has begun things are flowing thick and fast. I seem to be searching and finding for more and more information and articles about the change that is taking place in our hearts and minds. This summary of the Mayan 2012 calendar gives great insight into what i am thinking and feeling at the moment. She is right. We do need to be aware, consciously aware, of the change of era that is taking place. This shift of human mentality into a global consciousness or 'global brain' is vitally important to move us forward.

The funny thing about it, and not unlike the Dan Brown books, is that the knowledge has always been here tucked away in pockets of history, like from Marcus Aurelius or Sri Aurobindo or Madame Blavatsky, it has always been here sewing the seeds for the right time to come together, knowledge from all parts of the globe from all periods in history for now.

This really makes my heart sing, reading these articles is like music to my heart. It is singing as if it is knowledge it has always known, like a familiar friend or long lost lover - something putting me so at ease I feel like I can do anything and that is all right in the world :)

Feeling so inspired by my findings of the last couple of days, I'm going to seek out sources and compile where ever I find this same knowledge from all parts of the globe and from all periods of history and build it together. Lets see what happens!